Jason had surgery today. Seems like everything went really, really well.

I also attended Sean's funeral service, burial and a little skydiver wake today. It was difficult, and I don't even think I've had a chance to start my grieving.

I'm exhausted. Seriously, profoundly, brutally exhausted. But I hate sleeping, because then I wake up and realize all over again that I'm in a hospital with my boyfriend, who is terribly injured, and that my friend is dead -- and those feelings hurt too much.

Among all this, I'm trying to figure out how something that makes me so happy can bring so much pain. It's like skydiving betrayed me.

But I've also been so moved by the enormous love and support of the skydiving community. It's another topic for another day, but it's the reason why I'm left feeling like the luckiest girl in the world at the same time I also feel like one of the saddest.

P.S. **UPDATE** Skydive Wayne County is opening an account at Fifth-Third Bank to help pay for Jason's medical bills, since he has no health insurance. By Monday, you should be able to make a donation at any Fifth-Third branch. It will be listed under Jason Yasuda's name. Anything at all would be very much appreciated.

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